Tuesday, 7 October 2008

How do you realise you have grown matured???

The term ‘matured’ had been thrown at me a good couple of times last week in different contexts. Some of them were just trying to remind me I am growing older and others trying to point out that I have changed. And this made me think!!! This is what you do if you are left home alone for a week I guess.
Well, I can’t really figure out clear differences yet.
My mother never agrees to the relation between me and the term ‘matured’. She is the typical ‘Mother’ who still worries on everything. I am sure she doesn’t realise I have grown up.
My husband…actually it doesn’t make a big difference with him I guess. He is happy with the way things are. He does mention that I have become wiser in dealing with people.
My friends: well different perspectives. Those who know me well, who make genuine efforts to be in touch with me has not figured out any changes somehow. They still say I am monkeying around.
People who were out of touch for a while have figured out changes which are not very pleasing.

Well, on a bit of self-analysis:
Basics has not changed I believe.
Transition from a daughter to a wife was the biggest change I would say. Been always within the protective shield of a conservative family and an even more conservative Dad. But then, they did teach me to think…or I inherited it from that lovely couple. I had the freedom to think and express my views, but the decision was always by the High Command which need not be my view always (the reason he gives me now is that he didn’t want me to make mistakes). But then can’t really complain much on it now as nothing turned out bad to me.
The two gentlemen in my life are distinctly different. My better half is just on the opposite leaving the buffer space for me to learn from mistakes. But supporting on my side when I learn hard. He doesn’t decide things for me, on the contrary acts as the consultant giving me the pros and cons to decide. I think it used to be easy with Achan where you just need to go by things. But now, I am forced to think and decide. Certainly not a complaint as I prefer this any day. This way I have changed. But still, I am not sure if this can be related to being matured.

Yeah, there are things which have changed:
Just stopped going along with the flow I guess, I have thought on what I want to do and how to work towards that
Just don’t simply break into tears when someone shouts at me, though still slow to react
Just don’t act different when I want to show uneasiness which was referred to as ‘inwardly-outwardly’ once upon a time. Now, if I don’t want, I don’t want! If I don’t like, I don’t like
I can think of many more, but then too lazy to pen them down now.
But does this makes one matured???

I still remember my class tutor scribbling in my autograph book when I was leaving school, ‘Maturity doesn’t come with age, it comes with acceptance of responsibility’.

1 comment:

Unknown said...

Matured Huh .... :) I rem i did mention abt this when u talked..:)